In the spirit of being transparent, I am going to continue sharing details about my life that are deeper than surface material and more my truth. I’ve shared a little about my journey after getting married and it’s helped me connect with so many women who also went through the same thing. I want to write it out in case anyone else is in a place where they need to hear. For the longest time, I felt like I wasn’t living life the way I was supposed too. There have been so many hard times and obstacules faced throughout my life that I thought “this is the way life is supposed to be.” But, I had to go through those times to GROW and also to see my truth and what my purpose really is.
When I was younger, one of my sisters told me numerous times that I reminded her of Esther in the bible. I don’t know if you’ve ever read the book of Esther in the bible but it’s absolutely amazing and has become one of my favorites after reading and rereading and rereading! I even have a tattoo of a verse on my right wrist so I can always remember it. It’s the bible verse Esther 4:14 – “For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Esther was the key piece that ended up saving the Jews from a mass genocide. Esther was chosen for the King of Persia and went into the running to become his Queen (sounds like an episode of the Bachelor). She was born a Jew but hid this when she went to the Kings court. Her uncle, Mordechai made one of the King’s right hand men (Haman) mad because he wouldn’t bow down to him so Haman decided he wanted all the Jews dead. When Mordechai heard of Haman’s plan he wrote a letter to Esther explaining the importance of the situation at hand. She had to tell the King the truth about her being a Jew to save her race. This was a hard situation for Esther to be in because the King could have killed her for lying about being a Jew. She realized that she had to the right thing to save her people and if she died because of that, it was still the right thing to do. This story resonates with me because it basically means, you know your truth and you have to be brave enough to do the right thing no matter the outcome. It has shown in so many times in my life that it’s crazy!
I’ve realized that a lot of my hard times happened because I wasn’t on the right path. If I would have just stopped trying to do what I wanted and just listen to God I would have known his plan for me earlier. Because I didn’t listen, it took me a little longer but I realized what my purpose is in life. My purpose is to help others and sharing my truth and my experiences plays a huge part in that. It might not always be easy to sharing personal experiences but someone out there needs to know and needs your help. Your story is your story and no matter how good or bad it is you can always help someone else if you just decide to be real. Never forget your truth ya’ll!